Complications, complications and mor complications!

You know when you get to a point when you feel like things are so complicated that you just don't know how to start unravelling them? Well that's the way I'm feeling right now. There's so much happening that's so complicated that I just don't know how to start unravelling it all.

The most interesting thing is that the complication isn't coming from my side; it's coming from other people. Is that weird or what? I'm not the one who's making my life complicated, it's other people. But what can I do about it? It's not as if I can just drop my friends like hot potatoes; that's just rude, but then again do I really have to sit and endure all their complications?

What most people want in their lives is simplicity, right? So why can't most people just try to live their lives simply and without complication? I know there are just those things in life that are complicated but sometimes people just love creating unnecessary complications, is it really worth it?

Anyway, I hope I don't get bombarded with too much complication this week. I just want it to run ever so smoothly so that I can go home in one piece and with my brain still intact (not exploding from the over-thinking of all the complicatedness around me)

Wishing you all a very uncomplicated week, I know have to love you and leave you.

U knw U luv me,
XOXO
Chinxy =)

Oh my, it's finally over!!!

The two week long stress marathon is finally over. I can finally go to sleep with BOTH eyes shut =) I'm so gonna be a happy-chappy this week. And that long weekend was the cherry on the cake or should I say Ice-cream.

My ever so long weekend was spent on the computer and watching TV -- ah!!! the good old days; when I could just sit and be a couch potato every day of the week.

Well all I can say is taht I had an awesome weekend, am ready to eat lots and lo and am really stoked for the holz ;-)

Hope ya'll are having a grand time out there,


But for now I have to love you and leave you,



U knw u luv me,
XOXO
Chinx

I'm depressed :-(

I've just had another one of those really long boring days where i just didn't want to do anything but had so much work to do. it's really kinda sad though because i know that if I don't do that work i won't get to where i wanna be in exactly a years time.

This year is probably one of my most important academic years because I need these results to get me into a really good university and the course that i wanna do. My frustration is that I'm now getting really demotivated and when I'm demotivated I get bad results.

I guess you could say I just need to find some sort of inspiration to keep me going; but what the hell I'M DEPRESSED, inspiration is not really an option at the moment because I'm in a really negative state of mind.

All I can say is that life seems really unclear to me at the moment and I'm really not in the mood to try and figure out my "devine purpose" - if it isn't coming then it isn't coming.

Till l8r,

U knw u luv me,
XOXO
Chinx

Long day hey =(

Everyday seems to be dragging on longer than the day before it. Is this what life has come to; a series of days where it just seems like you can't bear to look out the window and still see the sun shinning?

Today I could barely even bring myself to get out of bed; I was so tired of the endless routine that made my life what it was. Even thought of getting some hot food was enough to encourage me to get out of bed. Is my life really becoming this droning? I spend the majority of my day studying and barely get enough timne to do anything else. i have limited hope for the things that i've studied becaue for some arbitrary reason a good percentage of my teachers seem to think that it's ok to want their students to fail their subject. And it just so happens that my three exams for this week are for these subjects.

Why don't teachers feel the passion anymore? Is it beacaue they're underpaid, develope an enormous dislike for kids, start hating their job or that they just don't care anymore? I'd really like to know coz I have some really, really unpassionate teachers who are absolutely ruthless and aim to see their students fail at practically everything they try and are not willing to help them through it. Is my life sad or what? = (

Until I get new found lees on life I must, unfortunately, love you and leave you.

u knw u luv me,
XOXO
Chinx